July 19 – A lot of action

Since I last posted our lives have been a whirlwind. Our license was approved with lightning fast speeds (well for what we had been told). We were told up to 3 months. It took just under 1.

3 days after that we were called about a placement. Due to medical issues and not being able to attend daycare, we had to decline. The next day we got another call and it was a newborn with no known medical issues. We accepted.

Needless to say it has been crazy. The little one was dropped off that very day. We ran out to pick up a few newborn items and took us 20 minutes to install the darn car seat. LOL.

Our neighbor has been really great with helping us learn the new parenting ropes. Swaddling, diaper changes, and more. We are overwhelmed, tired and in love. The little one is an exceptionally great baby. Just doesn’t like sleeping between 10 pm and 1 am.

We don’t get any time off for fostering with our jobs so we are alternating getting up for feedings and such.

While I am certainly feeling wonderful in this new adventure, I still feel like a fraud. All of our friends are over the moon for us, but we have to keep remembering that the baby isn’t ours. It is a loaner. We are simply taking the best care we can until the future gets decided.

Friends were all calling me momma. Which is super sweet, but still hurts. I am not really a mom. The late night feedings, the hugs and cuddles, the cute little outfit decisions are just part of the job. I am just doing my best to care for a tiny human that isn’t mine. Don’t get me wrong  I am so happy that we are doing this but it is still hard.

Hopefully the little one will be quick to catch on to what time is awake time and what time is sleep time! HAHA. One can hope…

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July 10 – Getting Closer

We were expecting to be waiting for months and months on the final step of getting our license approved. We heard from them a week after our application was put in. We had missed a date on our addresses. We corrected and already got an email that the preliminary check was complete. We are just waiting on the second person to check out our application before we are approved.

The nursery is getting closer to being complete. We bought a used changing table dresser with detachable hutch from a friend. I bought some primer and paint (after reading numerous blogs on how to refurnish furniture without sanding). Took 10 hours but it is looking amazing. Just have to paint the drawer pulls and touch up a couple of nicks. We still need a few pieces but it is starting to look like a real nursery.

It feels so strange. We aren’t pregnant but we are getting a room ready for a baby. It was even weirder looking at daycares. Obviously initial question, how old is your child? Well… um… about that. I told them we were doing foster care and knew the age range but nothing else. Spent like 5 hours touring 6 daycares near me. What do I know about finding a good daycare? Nothing!

The only thing I know is where I will not be sending the kiddo. There is a daycare near me that seemed overcrowded, stuffy and unorganized. The infant room had no windows. Who would want to be stuck in a room without sunlight all day?!?! It is hard deciding on whether I want a daycare with more features I like, or one that won’t cost me anything out of pocket. Obviously I wouldn’t send the kiddo somewhere that made me uncomfortable or seemed dirty or unsafe.

Our licensing agent said we could be approved as early as mid-July. Which is fast approaching! I wish we had more items, like a second car seat or a baby monitor, but one thing at a time. Here are some pictures of the dresser before and after: